Sunday, August 5, 2007

waaaahhhhhh..

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waah. totoo ba un? haha. i'm so confused right now. SUPER. di ko maintindihan kung ano na ba talaga ang nangyayare. gosh. this is crazy. just 2 weeks ago, i felt that i don't want to continue whatever i'm feeling. but all of a sudden, (just this friday) everything has changed. now, i want it again. im just scared kasi baka maulit nanaman ung nangyare before. i don't want to feel that way again. mahirap. magulo. masakit sa ulo. kaya im playing safe muna ngayon. ayoko masyadong magpadala sa emotions. but i can't avoid feeling like im on cloud9!!!! iba eh. the feeling's so different. i mean, i felt this way nanaman dati, nung summer. pero ibang level talaga ngayon! if i could just explain all that happened, ginawa ko na. but i can't. all those things are just stuck on my mind. i can't help thinking about it. gosh, i've been like this for two days already. im happy naman. yet, im still confused. i always have questions on my mind. and the worst part is, i don't have answers. grrh. this sucks. hmm. gusto ko pa ba talaga? or pinipilit ko na lang? huwaaaat. ewan ko na talaga. is this all worth it? will things be okay kapag tinuloy ko to? i don't want my emotions to control my decisions. but all that happened seems so perfect. parang walang mali. like im the only person in this world and all that's happening is according to what i want. walang kumukontra. haha. haii. i can't deny the fact i am soooooooo happy right now. but meron talgang doubt eh. i still can't get it. i don't want to assume kasi baka matulad nanaman sa nangyare before. i definitely do not want that.

grabe. the things on my mind are so jumbled. kalat-kalat ung thoughts ko. sobrang gulo. waah. i'm on cloud9 talaga.

hmm. i feel like a princess. i know my prince is out there but its been a while that he's battling the dragon and the witch. toinks. corny. but true. i don't know what he's waiting for. maybe he needs a potion to wake up his senses. ang tagal niyang matauhan. what more could he ask for? but that's fine with me. im still waiting. and i'll continue to wait until i can. since ang tagal ko nanamang stuck sa tower na hindi niya pa pinupuntahan, i'll continue to stay there and wait until he's ready to rescue me. it doesn't matter how long, as long as i can still hold on, i'll hold on! yeah. that's the spirit! go lang ng go!

haii. ohwell. aun lang naman. i still have a lot of things on my mind. kaloka.

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the one he can't walk away from
the one whom he can't fall asleep without my voice being the last one he hears..
the one he wouldn't know what to do without
and simply the girl he has repeatedly said to himself and to other people that..
I'M THE ONE. <3

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